My Ego

As I slung my sack over my shoulder and stood by the receptionist's desk I proclaimed, "I'm off to make sure all is right with the world."

 This meant heading to my apartment to feed Skeeter his daily snack, grab my laptop to send off a daily song to my friend in Guyana, and to belt out this proclamation.

 My ego is delusional, but without these acts, something would seem wrong with my world. To face a daily existence of these lunchtime rituals as routine without grandiose intention would mean a thankless and terribly boring existence. I find my delusion to be fulfilling and my accomplishments are my own. Ah, and to leave the office folk perplexed is vastly satisfying, but to be weird is my noble endeavour.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Press a Button get a Beer or How the Military Made me a Killer.

Press a button get a beer. This is how I became a killer. Press a button get a beer. I realize that there are many reasons that I found myself emerging from the output of the machine pressing out killers but those were my own reasons for showing up. I was romancing the idea of world travel when I arrived on deck and boastfully fell into the hopper. I did receive a lifetime's worth of travel. Was I hardened after bootcamp? Not at all and unexpectedly not. With my orders delayed and the rest of my shipmates travelling off to their respective schools or commands, I remained behind. For two weeks I was left on my own and this is where I slowly felt the programed robotic numbness fade. Bootcamp won't make you hard, it only makes robots. It is designed to empty you of thought and into the void is a small opening to fill with the technical knowledge required to perform as a professional sailor or soldier. As my window began to close and I regained the ordinary senses of the world,
Read more

Dear Sun

Dear Sun, Too many days of rain. I dread this abominable rain upon rain. Too many weeks of dreariness and gutters overflowing with the rubbish of humanity. A deluge of memories dilutes my soul and pours me into the dinge to translucently consort with the world. Too easily is my patina tarnished and I sulk into an opaque worm halfheartedly contorting above a soggy demise. Too many rainy days and so many worms unearthed and then plunged to their deaths. Hurry Sun! Come--recede this morbid river from my eyes and dry my memories into the deepest wormholes of regret. Sincerely, Grey Worm
Read more

Relentlessly pursing better

I've plenty of time to kill in the dealership's waiting to live area. A quote on a T-shirt today: Live with the relentless pursuit of better . I think this sounds dumb. Relentless--isn't this creating anxiety where it is useless or unnecessary? Pursuing better doesn't even mean you have to achieve anything. We hope to, and we can be okay with that. It's really the hope for the better, getting better, looking at our progress, and to me every little improvement adds up. Man, I really hope I'm getting better. I know that I am better when I consider my life, and where I started to be conscious about what better meant.
Read more